Finding God

My parents have been people that always left everything to God. They taught us as children that no matter what God will always come through for you. Our bond with God is stronger than any relationship even that of a mother and child, why would God not save you then? I always saw this as something ‘other’ people would need, in my mind I was inevitable as a follower of God. But then I grew up and moved to a world where life revolves around the follies of vanity and materialistic means of life. In this world the relationship with God you once had becomes a mere presence in your life rather than a way of life.

My biggest enemy and my biggest test of life is hypochondria as you may already know. I have been beaten to the ground by this spiral in my mind of sickness and google, yes you google, you have done this to me. And I know I am not the only one who is tormented by their own mind. I think ‘how is the rest of the world fine?’ ‘How are people so content with their lives?’ ‘How is that man living the life he is without the fear of cancer?’ And I think I may have found the answer. God.

‘Man a’rafa Nafsah, faqad arafa Rabbah’, who knows his soul knows his God. Religion is God realization, but spirituality is that relationship you build with the Devine Deity. Islam is a religion, follow it to the best of your human ability, but find that relationship with God where your every move is reliant upon Him. The thought that He has everything planned and He is looking after you should make everything seem wonderful and gives every today meaning. A famous Islamic scholar states that pains and illnesses of the body are pains and illnesses of the heart. One way of abandoning God and His book is by not calling onto him for healing. Maybe everything that happens to us is based on what we make our hearts and soul become.

My very good friend Kiran once said to me ‘Aniqah, how can you fear anything at all when God is there, you have nothing at all to worry about’. She is a Sikh. And it made me so proud of her. No matter what name you call God, he will always always listen. She has so much love and passion for God that her life has changed. That is what I want; To find a cure to all of life’s idiocies and tribulations through the mercy of God. Remember the first words of the Quran; In the name of Allah the most merciful and Beneficial. That is your lifeline right there.

We must all build love and trust in God FULLY in order to lead that life we want to live. It is liberating because our love is directed at the source of all our blessings, not merely the means.